Today I am contemplating what I've been doing and searching for out in the world of the internet, social media, and in my daily life.
I believe there is a fine line between looking at something and feeling inspired, versus looking at something and feeling "less than" or guilty in some way.
Let's delve in.
I follow a ton of Instagram accounts, blogs, listen to podcasts etc., and as much as I have the perception that I'm following this all to inspire me, I realized with a shock that I am still very much in the space of feeling deflated after "looking for inspiration". I either feel blatantly not good enough, or with influencers that are doing great things and sending great messages, I feel like "shit- why am I so pathetic, why am I not doing more??"
Neither of these are cool.
Neither of these are lifting me up.
Neither of these show self-love.
So- What are we gonna do?
Well, I'll tell you what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna love the shit out of myself!
I'm gonna catch myself every time I don't feel good enough- and I will change that thought.
I will not avoid anything- I will face it, until my self-esteem is strong enough to know that I am good enough, and that I have something to offer to this world.
And I will not allow myself to feel guilty because I've been comparing myself to others, I want to praise others, without feeling "less than".
I'm choosing love over fear.
Okay- get your journal out, or open a note on your phone, and write down what you're feeling, and keep checking in with that. If there is something that's making you feel shit about yourself, something that you're not ready to face, let it go for now- eliminate it from your space. But as you're working on loving yourself, check back in on those things, and see if they still affect you the same way. This is a great learning curve.
Our journey of self-discovery and self-love is not an easy one, but it's one we need to keep going on <3
Let me know in the chat box if anything comes up for you.