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Feeling Enough.

I don't know about you, but feeling 'enough' on many levels has been a rollercoaster ride for me. I have had a beautiful and privileged life, and have received abundantly, and felt love deeply.

However, the love I have felt so deeply hasn't been towards myself. I haven't felt beautiful enough, thin enough, fit enough, smart enough, motivated enough, determined enough, rich enough, stylish enough..I mean the list can include any word we'd like to pop in there.

I have gone through pockets of time where I don't feel anxious about being myself, and I go through junks of time where my anxiety is through the roof and I feel that I am being inadequate in many ways. If you've felt this, you know it can be so overwhelming and discouraging.

This can play out in many ways. For me, it turns into self-sabotage. Almost as though I am proving to myself that I am not adequate by not planning well, leaving things to the last minute, not taking care of my body, picking my skin, and so on. I also trick myself into believing that to change these feelings of inadequacy will require lots of time and money and resources that are just too hard to come by. This is not true.

Feeling enough starts with ourselves, we are our greatest resource.

Why do I say this?

I say this from personal experience, because having more things and moving more and more outward for answers has not gotten me anywhere. Yes, it may have helped me briefly, and I may have learnt from other resources, but my foundations with myself weren't strong. It was like trying to build a house on a shaky foundation. It wasn't doing it for me.

So, how do I work on feeling enough, with what I have (which is enough)?

Breathe - I always come back to this, and I don't like to scare people by using the word meditation, because I just see it as breathing deeply throughout the day, connect to that force of life that is your breath. When we are mindful of our breath we are sticking to this moment right now, and I have found that when I am in this moment right now, it's hard to build a list of inadequacies in my head.

Organize- This is a big one for me. Even though I still sabotage myself on this. Okay, the hard truth? Sometimes we don't feel enough, because we haven't given enough. We need to take responsibility. Maybe I'm not feeling enough because of a grade I got at college, maybe (full disclosure) I did my assignment last minute and didn't give it the time and energy and potential that I have. So, when I am organized and do what I can, how I know I can do it, I am empowering myself and definitely feeling closer to enough.

Accept- This is the hardest one. Simply, accept that you are in fact more than enough. It's okay if you don't believe it yet. We can start by me believing that you are enough (I do). And say to yourself whenever you can "I AM ENOUGH ". This message goes deep into your cells, don't underestimate it.

That's all I have for you today, but what I really want to stress is that we don't need to be fancy and add a bunch of wellness trends and products to change our state of being. Don't feel pressured to keep up with how Instagram looks, and what people are using and spending loads of money on. Come back to yourself for now.




Love Always,